for those feeling down and vexed

haiz. this entry shall have a gloomy start. stress stress. i know alot of our section mates is feeling very stressed, vexed and even depress. pi gu lar. the workload of students is so heavy and so high. so crazy. then, still gt our band commitment and sectionals this makes us not only physically busy, but also mentally drained and even emotionally depressed. the feeling of frustration where there are so many things to cope with and u know u are not able to cope with each of them so well. the physical tiredness and the sense of emotional dread at the end of the week and when new week begin. my dear section mates, i understand wad some of u are going through. fang fang stressing over finance accounts calculation and music, jing sis over her all Final yr project and commitment, mabel over her porjects too. its a long list. and the yr 1s may get this. some HAve second CCA like JAzz band or swimming dragon, some have the pi gu diploma plus. its not easy. i myself are stressed to the extent where i sleep very little every night to cope with both studies and band to the extent i emotionally almost break down that i am advised by teacher to defer my course( there are complications due to this that may result in me not being abel to play for concert, but nvm, worry abt tat later). but i salute my sect mates that have been committed thus far. now, our friends from outside will nv understand y we band members stress ourselves out to this extent and tire ourselves out and they wont be understanding when we cannot deliver what we need to. but we know ourselves. we are not idiots that just want to put ourselves through all these for the sake of making a point. the reason for we doing it is only one word. PASSION. the passion andthe sense of fufillment we get when we do music. yes, passion. ARGH! for those of us tat has participate in clarinet festival, u know the sacrifice tat we put through , the stubborn rehearsing of a part until it is gd, and the give it all feel at the festival itself. is this something that ppl outside can understand and appreciate? no. but we know what it is about. not all of us are talented in music and it is not as if we need to be.being in a CCA like dat have no practical rewards and return except a few pigu CCA points that dosent really mean a pigu to those pigu out there. but we know at the end of it we become a better person and we get the spiritual nourishments that will spur us on in this world where all the wrong seems right and vice versa. our friendship will run deep and be a constant warmth to the heart. can results and GPA measure these priceless treasures? no it cant. so yar, my friends press on. we are in these together, i cant help u guys solve ur problems becos i am full of the same problem as u all, emotionally and mental stress and even physical health problem. but my moral support is here for u guys. i salute u guys for the commitment and i thank yueyuan sis for his(her?) tiredless guidance. for those of u tat CAN come for sectionals but nv come, i am truly sadden(i am not pinpointing anyone but just saying in general). but i will leave it up to u to decide how much u want to commit. froced commitment is no commitment. u decide bah. ARGH! lets us press on in our passion and strive on.

with love,
Fabian